I Need Some Wind

I felt a lot like this boat this past week!  I felt like the wind was knocked out of my sails!  

Since my pregnancy with my second son I have had an umbilical hernia, with this last pregnancy it got quite large.  It is so ugly, unsightly even.  When I was pregnant my 4 year old asked me if that was the baby's nose.  I've known for awhile that I need to have it surgically repaired.  Well this week I had an appointment with the surgeon to talk about that and to talk about another abdominal mass I discovered.  Talk about a stressful couple of weeks...if you have an unknown mass don't google it!!!  I was pretty sure I had cancer.  I wasn't sleeping at night worrying about who was going to take care of my children when I was gone...my mind was going crazy!  This, along with company in town, eating out more, and not getting enough exercise was a perfect storm for an apathetic me.  It was no surprise that I had gained weight this morning!
I did find out my mass is actually a second hernia, an incisional one where my scar tissue in the muscle from all of my c-sections has ripped.  So although I was relieved and grateful it wasn't anything worse, I'm still bummed that I'm facing a pretty big surgery (now with 2 incisions) in my near future to get everything fixed.  I'm most likely going to be having surgery the last week of our competition.
At first I was thinking of just dropping out, continuing to moderate but not participate.   But I felt a little "wind" blowing me out of the dirt...namely Megan who signed up with me to take Zumba, water aerobics, and a boot camp class in June.  Starting today I am back in and really trying to feel that motivated feeling that will keep me going.
Hope none of you are feeling like you are stuck in the dirt this week!